I deserve this

Dear blog,

You know why I’m sad today? In fact why I will be sad for the coming days? How can you? You’re not a mind reader.

Well, I’m very , very, very sad. But nobody will , rather should empathize me because I’m a loser. I don’t try things, I ‘m too afraid to be a failure. Thats no solution darling.

Anyway, leave it. I have already lost the battle before fighting it.

I am utterly sad. I watch these serials in loads just for an escape. Akshara? Wish my life was like hers. Huh!

I eat all the time. Maggi, pasta, papad, biscuit. Anything.

I cant take it anymore. bye for now

A Wednesday

Dear blog,

A lot has happened in the past few days. Nothing worth telling others, but since you are my darling blog, I’m gonna confide to you definitely!

I’ve been watching a lot of Hollywood movies of late. And most of the movies are love triangles, where after all drama , the would be bride realises her love in her wedding gown in the church. You want me to name a few? Made of honor, Sweet home Alabama. Then I watched Coyote Ugly too. The guy was great, I liked the girl too. Patrick Dempsey is a nice actor  too.

Had our Summer Training viva today. Lot of people turned up. It was basically ok. HODs were tired asking questions to PLC people. !

What else? Going to watch Love Aaj kal on Friday , morning show. South city, Fame.

Had gone to Big Bazaar while returning from college.

Chalo byebye. Oh yes, We had to submit the names of groups for our final year project. I did with Shalini. Ireally dont wanna do with Arindam and Aritra. Though doing with Parnisha would have been nice. Sigh.

Bye and goodnight

mocked :(

Had the first mock test today. Horrible 2:30 hrs, to say the least .

Realisations:

1)I’m too lazy during exams. I would rather lose marks than stress my head. Don’t know why is this. Maybe I’m too afraid of failures. Have to work on it.

2) Time management is zero. Again I guess being lazy is the culprit.

3) Lack of knowledge, like formulas of geometry.

4) Lack of approach.

5) Vocabulary. How to work on it??

6) Usage of words is really eating my head.

7) DI- how to cope up?

8 ) Lack of insight. Whether to attempt or leave question which I’m not sure of

9) Lazy lazy lazy- Didnt feel like reading RC passages.

10) Work on it darling, work on it

Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai, aakhri baar mohabbat ki hai…

I’m kind of filling this blog with all sorts of negativities. Despair, sadness, helplessness, and blah blah.

Sad, aint it?

Project report submission on 28th, viva on 29th. I’m working on it. Its kinds waste of time, all these copy pasting stuff. Abhay called from Chennai , to ask me to make a copy for him.

Kaminey has some really nice songs. Particularly, the pehli baar mohabbat ki hai, aakhri baar mohabbat ki hai…

The weather today has been  quite bad. Should I say bad? Its kinda raining. It didnt rain while was about to take bath, otherwise I would have ran upstairs to the terrace to get drenched, like yesterday.

gasps :(

Exactly 4 months remaining from my first major exam , IIFT. God save me, please .

Unproductive day , actually. Went to college, nothing as such. Only notifications. Blah.

Porte boshi

In the bus, under the sky

Abhay called me, while I was making a futile attempt to cross the wide crossing across Ruby at one run. ‘Dont run so fast , its only 9:30′.

Then we crossed the wide road, and was waiting at the bus stop under blaring sun. He had gone to the ashram for meditation.We got into a almost empty ‘Newtown Jadavpur’ bus. This bus is quite  famous for its notoriety in roaming around the entire Salt Lake. And so our journey was long, if not exceptionally.

We talked a lot, mostly about Sampurna and her nakhras. How she sleeps with people, her recent manhunts and all that jazz.

We reached around 10. Webel gates were not open yet and finding the terrace empty, we went up. The place was nice, if nice is an understatement, then great. Huge buildings, occasional low travelling aircrafts.

“Which side is airport?”

“That side , I suppose”.

“This is a private jet, so I’ll need that side of the airport later”

“Huh”

The topic deviated to Sampurna again. What Abhay’s group partners think of her, what her partners think of me and Arindam blah blah.

The topic deviated to some eerie things as well.Abhay and eerie, does go well. Waxing and its details was the topic. Again Sampurna was the protagonist.

Finally people started pouring in and we came down stairs.

Test was mcq type.Okay-okay. Tried IIFT hunting with Myank, but in way. Will do it later. Training khatam !

I should stop brooding now.

I have this dream of K to K.

Or K to I.

Or K to D.

Or K to J.

But God doesn’t grant wishes of  lousy , lazy, clumsy people.

Its a Tuesday

Had factory visit today, in Shyambazar. We met in front of the metro station and proceeded towards the traffic guard.

Later me and Mayank returned by metro. I got down at the Rashbehari station. Three days remains of our training, I need to explore sector 5. Havenot yet seen the IIFT  campus, plan to visit NIFT  campus too.But thats in sector 1 , I think.

Okay everyone liked my top today. Clap clap. Its not a new one though. But since I’m quite protective about it, I wear it after certain periods, and everybody thinks that its a new one. I remember Ma was notsohappy about me buying the top, but since then everybody has said sweet words about it and now even Ma agrees

Yeah Mom, is still at/in (my preposition skill sucks) IIM-C, merrying around, living 5 star life everyday. They had a cocktail party a few nights ago, and will have a farewell party this weekend I guess.

Boo hoo

On a Monday morning

Ma went to IIM-C workshop today. Will be back next to next Saturday.

This is the first time that I will be staying away from her for so long. And I’m already missing her.Earlier I’ve stayed without her for may be a single night.

No training today. Tomorrow ache. I need to study Boss.

Its a silly afternoon now. Weather is pretty decent. No rain. No Sun.

I’m planning for a day out at KFC, City centre tomorrow, but dunno whether that’ll be possible. If both Srimoyee, and Amrita agrees , then only. Its been ages since I’ve been to KFC, as well as City centre. KFC Park street  will be too time consuming.

Lets see…

Just an update

Training started yesterday. Sector 5 is a nice place to look at!

Called up ma after training. Came back home with her. Had a roll at the Bawarchi shop. Weather was bad. Monsoon has come?

Anyway , I’m not studying at all. Watching all damn serials. God help me, okay?

Series of bank visits are due. Next training on Friday and Saturday , back to back. Ma is going to IIM C on Monday.

I’m all sneezy and tired. Have to go to Big Bazaar.

Chalo byye!